Dear boy,
It really is true, all the absolutely incredible guys are gay. I kinda thought we'd be a good couple, we had tons in common and I thought it could be worth it to date a co-worker. Nope. As it turns are, you like guys.
Actually, I have no problems with that. I never have problems with people who like the same gender. You could be gay, lesbian, transgendered, or a hermaphrodite and I legitimately, would never, ever care. I want you to be my friend. I think we would be fantastic friends, Dillon!
Which, of course, you'll also never read this, BUUUUTTT I think you're a cool guy and I enjoy my time at work with you. So here's to you, Dillon. An amazing guy that, that I'm very disappointed, isn't straight ;P
My name is Jawzii and this is for you!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Saturday, August 13, 2011
My Letter To People Who Might Care
Dear people,
I have been through a lot of hardships and the bad times just keep coming. I wish that the good times outranked the bad, but the truth is, they really don't. I know everybody is always saying that there is more good in life than evil, but, for some, that isn't true, Sometimes the world is just bad.
I'm not saying I'm perfect. I have done things that deserve me the right to karma every once and a while. But this all started when I was 4 flipping years old and I don't think that at that age, you can earn bad karma. So I guess maybe my karma off-set is just because I've been so messed up as a child.
I didn't write this letter to necessarily get pity, nothing even close to that actually. I write this because no one understands why I hate being single... I hate being single because I get depressed and saddened very quickly. I hate being single because I have no one to hold me when I remember all of the bad things that have happened to me. I hate being single because I feel completely alone.
Yes, I have friends. Yes, some of them care about me. No, it's not the same as having a loving, caring boyfriend. What you all don't understand is that I need someone to talk to and hug me and kiss me and tell me that the nightmares I've suffered are behind me. Instead, I've gotten disastrous relationships that simply add to my fears. Abuse, lying cheating, abandonment.
So this letter is to those of you who call me needy, dependent, clingy, I need someone because it's what's keeping me from suffering from depression. I've been single for longer than I ever have before and it isn't a pleasant feeling to be alone. Alone in my thoughts, in person, and in everything else. I hate being single because it leaves me alone to be with myself in every aspect I could be.
I love you guys. You're my friends. But you can't replace what I'm missing. I may never get what I'm missing either... But you guys, the ones who'll never understand me, cannot replace that hole... I love you guys and I love the person I'm missing, whoever that may be.
My name is Joslyn and this letter is for you...
I have been through a lot of hardships and the bad times just keep coming. I wish that the good times outranked the bad, but the truth is, they really don't. I know everybody is always saying that there is more good in life than evil, but, for some, that isn't true, Sometimes the world is just bad.
I'm not saying I'm perfect. I have done things that deserve me the right to karma every once and a while. But this all started when I was 4 flipping years old and I don't think that at that age, you can earn bad karma. So I guess maybe my karma off-set is just because I've been so messed up as a child.
I didn't write this letter to necessarily get pity, nothing even close to that actually. I write this because no one understands why I hate being single... I hate being single because I get depressed and saddened very quickly. I hate being single because I have no one to hold me when I remember all of the bad things that have happened to me. I hate being single because I feel completely alone.
Yes, I have friends. Yes, some of them care about me. No, it's not the same as having a loving, caring boyfriend. What you all don't understand is that I need someone to talk to and hug me and kiss me and tell me that the nightmares I've suffered are behind me. Instead, I've gotten disastrous relationships that simply add to my fears. Abuse, lying cheating, abandonment.
So this letter is to those of you who call me needy, dependent, clingy, I need someone because it's what's keeping me from suffering from depression. I've been single for longer than I ever have before and it isn't a pleasant feeling to be alone. Alone in my thoughts, in person, and in everything else. I hate being single because it leaves me alone to be with myself in every aspect I could be.
I love you guys. You're my friends. But you can't replace what I'm missing. I may never get what I'm missing either... But you guys, the ones who'll never understand me, cannot replace that hole... I love you guys and I love the person I'm missing, whoever that may be.
My name is Joslyn and this letter is for you...
Sunday, August 7, 2011
My Letter To Someone Special
Dear you,
I missed you. I missed your texts. I missed your voice. I missed your hugs. I missed the way I felt when I'm around you. I missed you.
I know there is so much more that I can say I missed, but I feel like that sums up a lot of it. When you stopped speaking to me, a part of me kind of disappeared. I'm not trying to sound too sentimental or cliche, but it's true. I knew I wasn't the same as I was when you were talking to me and holding my hand. But now I'm back and I think you may be too.
We talked about still having feeling for each other, but I feel as though you're hesitant. I don't know why but I want this to work. I hate that I'm out on the line, ready to be what I couldn't be before and now you're the hesitant one. But, perhaps, it's a good thing. Maybe I'm rushing my heart back into this too soon. But I can't help it. I wanted you once, I want you again.
Screw my ex-boyfriend saying it's a bad idea. Screw my parents telling me not to trust you. Screw absolutely EVERYONE else! You are the person I want, the person I have wanted, the person I've been hesitant to date, the person that I should have been with for a long time now.
The truth is though, I love you. I have been in love with you since December. And I'm finally admitting it. It's horrifying and exhilarating all at the same time. But it's good that you know, even if you NEVER read this. Even if you decide you don't want to be with me in the end, that's fine. I'll get over it and I'll deal with it. I just had to let you know how much of an impact you've had on me.
Just to clarify.... I am completely, madly, insanely, over heels, in love with you. I have been for over 6 months and I don't think it's going away any time soon. I will be your everything if you want me. It won't be the same this time. I promise.
My name is Joslyn and this letter is for you <3
I missed you. I missed your texts. I missed your voice. I missed your hugs. I missed the way I felt when I'm around you. I missed you.
I know there is so much more that I can say I missed, but I feel like that sums up a lot of it. When you stopped speaking to me, a part of me kind of disappeared. I'm not trying to sound too sentimental or cliche, but it's true. I knew I wasn't the same as I was when you were talking to me and holding my hand. But now I'm back and I think you may be too.
We talked about still having feeling for each other, but I feel as though you're hesitant. I don't know why but I want this to work. I hate that I'm out on the line, ready to be what I couldn't be before and now you're the hesitant one. But, perhaps, it's a good thing. Maybe I'm rushing my heart back into this too soon. But I can't help it. I wanted you once, I want you again.
Screw my ex-boyfriend saying it's a bad idea. Screw my parents telling me not to trust you. Screw absolutely EVERYONE else! You are the person I want, the person I have wanted, the person I've been hesitant to date, the person that I should have been with for a long time now.
The truth is though, I love you. I have been in love with you since December. And I'm finally admitting it. It's horrifying and exhilarating all at the same time. But it's good that you know, even if you NEVER read this. Even if you decide you don't want to be with me in the end, that's fine. I'll get over it and I'll deal with it. I just had to let you know how much of an impact you've had on me.
Just to clarify.... I am completely, madly, insanely, over heels, in love with you. I have been for over 6 months and I don't think it's going away any time soon. I will be your everything if you want me. It won't be the same this time. I promise.
My name is Joslyn and this letter is for you <3
My Letter To All Of You
I recently joined a website called "Letters I'll Never Send". That website is all about getting your feelings out and speaking your mind, no matter how hurtful or wrong they may sound. I love the aspect of the website. It inspired me to start this blog. I'm going to write letters to my friends. Whether or not they read it, is their business.
Dear friends,
This is to all of you. The good, the bad, and the mediocre. I love you all in different ways.
To my bad friends, you know who you are and what you've done to be labeled as such. You have hurt me and continuously put me down. You have spun my words into endless circles until, even, I finally start to believe your lies. You tangled me into your drama and the horrendous lives you weave. You made me feel like shit constantly but I stuck around. I stuck around in hopes that you would accept me. That I could be your true friend and get out of everything else you put me into. But guess what? I still love you. Not for the fact that you're my friend, not for the fact that I'll forgive you for your torment, but because you taught me a lesson. You taught me to be strong and to not trust unless I was absolutely certain they were going to be in my life and not blackmail me with it. So I love you for what you've done to me and I thank you for being the incredibly crappy friends you have proven to be. Without you, I wouldn't exist the way I am today.
To my mediocre friends, you may not necessarily know that I know who you are, but I'm not stupid and I have labeled you as such for a reason. You are the friends that listen to me bitch and moan and act like you care about the things I have to say. But in reality, you don't care. You may not tell people what I've told you, but you will go behind my back and call me a whore, a slut, a bitch, a moron, and a variety of other derogatory terms. I don't ever call you out on these either, because no matter what I say, you will lie to me about going behind my back. You are the people who would ditch me in a heartbeat and would never dream of being in my life had we not shared a heart to heart at one point or another. But I love you nonetheless. You have taught me to appreciate the friends I have that will not do this to me. I've come to appreciate all that I am not, due to what you believe I am.
To all of my good friends, you definitely know if you're in this category. You have helped me through tick and thin. You have listened to me, cried with me but more importantly, you have never left my side despite all of that. You are the people I rely on to make my day go better when everything is going wrong. You are the people I know I can talk to about absolutely anything and it will never be judged, no matter how bad it may be. You are the people who watch my ups and downs and still stick by my side. I love you all so much for being the best friends I could ever ask for. I love you for not being bad or mediocre like so many others are. I love you for being you. Thank you for everything. Thank you for never giving up on me, even if it seemed to be the best idea at that time. I love you all!
Good luck to my mediocre and bad friends. If you choose to stay in my life after this blog post, then go ahead, but that's your choice. Eventually, you'll leave my life any way, so why not sooner rather than later?
My name is Joslyn and this letter is for you. <3
Dear friends,
This is to all of you. The good, the bad, and the mediocre. I love you all in different ways.
To my bad friends, you know who you are and what you've done to be labeled as such. You have hurt me and continuously put me down. You have spun my words into endless circles until, even, I finally start to believe your lies. You tangled me into your drama and the horrendous lives you weave. You made me feel like shit constantly but I stuck around. I stuck around in hopes that you would accept me. That I could be your true friend and get out of everything else you put me into. But guess what? I still love you. Not for the fact that you're my friend, not for the fact that I'll forgive you for your torment, but because you taught me a lesson. You taught me to be strong and to not trust unless I was absolutely certain they were going to be in my life and not blackmail me with it. So I love you for what you've done to me and I thank you for being the incredibly crappy friends you have proven to be. Without you, I wouldn't exist the way I am today.
To my mediocre friends, you may not necessarily know that I know who you are, but I'm not stupid and I have labeled you as such for a reason. You are the friends that listen to me bitch and moan and act like you care about the things I have to say. But in reality, you don't care. You may not tell people what I've told you, but you will go behind my back and call me a whore, a slut, a bitch, a moron, and a variety of other derogatory terms. I don't ever call you out on these either, because no matter what I say, you will lie to me about going behind my back. You are the people who would ditch me in a heartbeat and would never dream of being in my life had we not shared a heart to heart at one point or another. But I love you nonetheless. You have taught me to appreciate the friends I have that will not do this to me. I've come to appreciate all that I am not, due to what you believe I am.
To all of my good friends, you definitely know if you're in this category. You have helped me through tick and thin. You have listened to me, cried with me but more importantly, you have never left my side despite all of that. You are the people I rely on to make my day go better when everything is going wrong. You are the people I know I can talk to about absolutely anything and it will never be judged, no matter how bad it may be. You are the people who watch my ups and downs and still stick by my side. I love you all so much for being the best friends I could ever ask for. I love you for not being bad or mediocre like so many others are. I love you for being you. Thank you for everything. Thank you for never giving up on me, even if it seemed to be the best idea at that time. I love you all!
Good luck to my mediocre and bad friends. If you choose to stay in my life after this blog post, then go ahead, but that's your choice. Eventually, you'll leave my life any way, so why not sooner rather than later?
My name is Joslyn and this letter is for you. <3
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